Thursday, March 29, 2007

INSPIRATO

...

it is not something that can be pulled one way nor pushed another
altho many coax it, bribe it, and will it.
most force it, even more steal it. daily.
a select few can make it flow, like water.
of those fortunate few
some scratch by on mere drops,
slowly starving.
others are caught under crashing waves,
having more than one can handle they drown.
and then there are those that have it as the rest crave it;
on tap and at the ready.
fear them (absolute consumes absolutely).

many willt attempt to claw their way up and out with it,
most are knocked back or worse, stagnate within it.
some start at the top and, slowly, trickle down as they lose it.
some fall, some crash, some just fade away.

but everyone wants it,
no matter how much they already have.
and those without will tear themselves and everything else apart
in their voracious drive to be as those who wield it effortlessly.

...

SCATTER PATTERN

+ CLICK ALL OVER THIS +
+ VITAMINS I'M DYIN TO TAKE + old chairs, new life: project99 + MANDARIN 24 + bossanova an aquired taste, a desired design + THE VIDEOS OF MALAJUBE (montreal -40 is a joygasm ) +
+ insomnia cured watching 18 hours of heroes at once. fun little show, thanks AK +
+ MINUSHI + PRODUCTION LOG +
{ another full-length flash film made SINGLE-HANDEDLY. wowzers. }
+ CS3 announced! learn adobe. all. over. again. + ADDICTED TO BRAIN CRACK + organix pet food; healthy ingredients, killer type layout ( and DAMN I WANT A DOGGIE ) + wall-to-wall flash games at onemorelevel +
NEXT WEEK: once more unto the breach

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

6 < 2

six down, two to go.
through painfull insomnia and less-than-expedient printers, we prevail.
the CHUTZPAH is on a temporary hiatus as it rewires for the next go at it. trust you're all doing well, see you when i see you.

Monday, March 05, 2007

STUDIO WEAK

final production week is upon us again.
lately, i'm more and more of a mind that this shouldn't be about anxiety attacks, ludicrous deadlines, and trying to finish the sysphean tasks they toss half-heartedly in your path. no. to me it needs to be about this: have i added to my pertinent skills, my creative life? do i have the ability and the impetus to create something that, if i slapped it on your desk, you would fall over yourself to give me the shot and the spot we both know i earned years ago? if not, we just took time away from actualizing the work that will win me my place in the sun. educate, motivate, or eliminate.
three fourths of the way through this school now and most days i feel my worthy abilities and content are painfully minimal... but i also believe i got enough heart to make you cry blood. does that get anyone anywhere in our market?
or is the code, the kern, and the inside connection the only way out of this corner?

untutored courage is useless in the face of educated bullets - Patton.

i'll get there if i gotta gargle glass to do it. i'll sleep when you're dead.
that career, that life? you were just breakin it in for me.